Gently Now

Something I continue to grapple with is being patient when I really want to become masterful in the way I am being so I can increase my ability to contribute in a deep, meaningful way while living a peaceful, joyful life. The progress can be slow 🙂

I lose patience with the doubts and fears that arise along with the frustration.

I want my mind to be more trusting, to be so sure of what I want that doubt becomes impossible.

I know that if I could just focus my mind enough, that most of the difficulties would fall away. Yet I also know so much is in the subconscious/unconscious that there’s no way I can magically correct all of my baggage that I project out into the world.

I have to rely on forgiveness, gentleness and kindness towards myself as well as others. To not take it personally, to not judge myself or others.

So I have to be gentle and accept that I will have unwanted thoughts, anxiety, petty complaints. I’ve learned to let them float on by during my good days and on my less gentle days I do the best I can.

It’s said that this world is a projection and that everything I perceive is what I want to see? And that what I see is an interpretation filled with misperceptions and mistakes.

The aspect that gets to me the most is when I want things to be peaceful and loving, and I believe I’m doing my absolute best to help things along but others don’t cooperate, lol. So do I stay and keep trying or do I move on to more willing participants? If it’s just all me projecting, then why do things get better with some people/situations and not others? Is it because I have a permanent image engraved in my mind so there’s no chance of things improving?

I guess it doesn’t really matter? Common sense dictates that if a situation isn’t improving no matter how hard I try, then it’s time to move on.

I want to be able to reach the point where I will be able to maintain inner peace, non-judgement and instant forgiveness, lol 🙂 I want to be so aligned with love that I can always act from the wisdom of the logical heart.

So I’ve been telling myself, go gently now 🙂 We’re all doing our best 🙂

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Michelle Miyagi
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