Creative Expression

Note to self…try writing earlier in the day and see if that’s better, lol.

Today was grocery shopping fun and then we caught up on 4 episodes of Kidding, Jim Carrey/Michel Gondry. I’ve been a big fan of both actor and director for years. I am so loving Kidding, the musical episode about divorce, wow, just wow! Comedians make such great actors, they have an added depth that is more truthful, soulful, heart-opening. Vulnerability and fearlessness.

I’ve also been chuckling to myself today about episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm we watched last night. OMG, how do they think of such absurd hilarity and not break character while acting it out? They must have so many outtakes, lmao!

It’s so soothing to have entertainment and comedy to distract yourself and lighten your mood, especially during tough times. It’s nice to escape for a little while 🙂 I marvel at the genius, talent and brilliance of it all. It’s inspiring, all the team work, collaboration, synchronization culminating in creating their visions so masterfully. I’d love to be a fly on the wall, to see everything that goes into pulling it all off.

I remember how much we had to practice for choir, musicals and operas. How we all worked together to create a beautiful production and performance. It was so exciting and gratifying. I loved it all. It was magical.

I miss being creative, I guess writing on here and creating this website has helped fill that void, that urge to share and create. I also used to draw and paint, took art and jewellry making classes in college. As a child I was always drawing, making things, trying knitting, crocheting, sewing, doing crafts. I also played violin, piano, did gymnastics all very briefly. And singing, performing I did for years.

I spent hours and hours practicing singing. I’d forgotten how much. During our visit last week, my cousins reminded me about how I used to practice in the basement at grandma’s…how they thought, wow, she has to practice that long? Lol…I’d forgotten all about that.

Everyone from my younger days asks me, “Are you still singing? You have such a beautiful voice, like an angel.” It makes me feel good and kinda sad too, I say, “I sing in my car.” 🙂 I do miss it. I keep thinking I’ll find a choir to join or something, one day when I have the energy 🙂 And I bought some art supplies a couple of months ago, but returned them when money got tight, lol. I have good intentions, maybe this year I’ll get around to fulfilling more of my artistic, creative urges.

Writing like this has definitely helped me feel like I’m expressing creatively in my own small way. It’s helped sustain me through times when I wanted to give up on everything. I felt that what I shared here could possibly help others going through the same challenges. It comforted me to think that I wasn’t the only one struggling and that maybe by sharing it would be more like we’re all in this together. Validation, camaraderie, maybe something I share might help someone else, ya know?

I am so thankful for all of the artists in the world. It’s what keeps me going. I can’t wait to see what they come up with next. It’s so inspiring and life affirming.

“A bit of madness is key
To give us new colors to see
Who knows where it will lead us?
And that’s why they need us” So bring on the rebels
The ripples from pebbles
The painters, and poets, and plays… (The Fools Who Dream from La La Land)

Michelle Miyagi
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