Who Are We Becoming?

Agh, full blown cootie fest here, I’ve got a blasted cold, meh. Which has me thinking about the coronavirus and racism. I think that may be why I’ve had a chillier reception these days. It’s hard to pin down my race, because I’m mixed I could pass as any number of races. I’ve noticed that since I moved from the south to the west, more people think I’m Native American or Hispanic whereas down south I was asked if I was Chinese, Vietnamese or Hawaiian.

So I have added layers of racism/xenophobia or on the other hand inclusion, lmao 🙂 I’m also discovering that people treat you differently if you’re not in a “professional” job like nursing. If you’re in the hospitality, service industry there’s sometimes an open hostility and level of disrespect. It’s been rather eye opening. People ignore you and treat you as if you’re invisible or with a vibe of contempt. I’m gaining so much understanding of all the complex dynamics at play in our society and it’s deepened my level of compassion and wisdom.

There’s really not much I can do about it, the racism, supremacism and elitism in my day to day life, except treat everyone with loving kindness and respect. It’s pure fear and ignorance, they know not what they do. And with the powers that be it’s only revealed how much fear and ignorance continues to prevail beneath the false exteriors of our neighbors. We thought we were making progress, well we have, but not as much as we believed. In the back of my mind I sometimes have thoughts that people view me as an illegal immigrant and wish me ill, you know with Trump and all. It’s sad, scary and so disappointing. Heartbreaking.

I mean my family was placed in internment camps during World War II because of their race. I think my worries are justified, but I don’t want to be afraid, but sometimes the fear creeps in unbidden. So we’re all afraid, but some fears are more based on historical and current facts while other fears are just effects of fear mongering and wanting to stay in patriarchal/kyriarchal power or revert back in time to “the good old days.” The belief that some people are inherently more deserving and entitled than others is utter hogwash, a load of BS.

I try not to think about what others are possibly thinking about me, or what’s driving their behavior. After all, I can’t really know what’s going on with someone else unless they are overt and tell me. They can just be having a bad day, idk? I mean you can decipher a lot through body language, energy and your intuition, but you can’t know absolutely for sure unless they come out and say it. Then you can call them out and express your boundaries, but only then.

So I do my best to drive the pesky thoughts I have about people being racist, sexist or judging me. It doesn’t really help me, actually it makes me defensive and I’d rather just be the true me. Peaceful, happy and wanting everyone else to be peaceful and happy too.

I hope reading this causes people to question. Truthfully, what are you creating in this world. Are you actively choosing respect, love, peace, adding to the greater good? Are you practicing ways of being that are the building blocks of lasting change for the betterment of our world. Each of us is ultimately responsible for what we are being and creating through our thoughts, feelings and actions. Are you treating others the way you would want to be treated? Do you value love, compassion, equality and peace?

I think we are all grown enough and intelligent enough to do better. We are strong enough to not fall for all of the lies. I have faith in humanity, how about you? We’re all in this together, really that’s the truth. ? We get to choose who we are becoming. In this way we can change the world.