Late Bunnies

Resorted to dipping into our cold medicines, was saving them in case we really need them, but feeling too blecky. I stayed in bed most of the day, even took a nap. Finished watching the movie called Yesterday. I’d watched half of it on a flight last month and it just popped up recently to watch for free, yay. It’s a cute romantic movie and I love The Beatles, a pleasant distraction.

I see online people are still skeptical about the numbers in the pandemic, and they compare it with flu numbers. They are so afraid of the media and the governments that they don’t believe the science, the experts, and the people on the ground where it’s happening. And I get it, they have lied to us so many times that we don’t know what to believe. People are paranoid and mistrusting.

There is reliable, trustworthy, accurate information freely available from multiple sources so that if you actually take it all in, a big picture forms. It clicks into place. The main takeaway is to flatten the curve because we don’t have the resources or leadership coordination to enact suppression. We want to avoid slamming the hospitals all at once because of the shortages of ventilators and PPE. So we can save more people and have mercy on our health care workers. That is the truth.

So I limited my time on social media today. People are not understanding and it’s difficult for me because it’s important to work together but many just keep stirring the pot because that’s their M.O. I get angry and sad, so I take a break from it. I surrender to what’s within my power and recenter myself, meditate and go within.

I rested today. Took even more of a break. It was sunny and warmer out, but I was too wobbly for a nature walk. I’ve been wanting to cook a pot of beans, but too tired. I’ve been eating fresh spinach, brown rice with frozen corn, and peas that I microwave. And had a PB&J. My usual cup of coffee, then green tea, cinnamon tea, chamomile tea, lavender tea.

Drue and I chatted before he went to work, making inappropriate jokes to help us cope. We have the most unusual, random and absurd discussions, that if anyone overheard, they’d be shaking their heads, lmao.

Looked at the unemployment website and sighed, lol. Maybe I’ll have a go at it tomorrow. People haven’t been able to get their applications to go through because so many are applying that the site can’t handle it. Names beginning with certain letters are assigned to different days to see if that helps. Turns out I’ve been furloughed, there’s still a job waiting for me when and if they get back up and running as before this pandemic. It may be a while, though. The company will probably be filing for bankruptcy too before it’s over.

I’m not looking forward to grocery shopping this Monday. That used to be the highlight of my week. It will be a quick visit for sure. We just need a few items. Still have plenty of TP.

I want to mail my daughter a package of fun things, treats, but I’m not, don’t know if that’s wise. So maybe she’ll be getting a chocolate Easter bunny in July?

I have the urge to deep clean the apartment, yeah that’ll be happening as soon as I feel better.

I feel very fortunate; we have minor concerns here; we have all our basic needs met and will get by because we have some cushion, but what about others? How’s it gonna be?

My heart is still panging.