Big Hearts

I was well behaved today. I woke up feeling kinda almost normal and wanted to resume normal activities, but I didn’t want a relapse, so I decided to do quiet things that boost my spirit. I don’t know why I didn’t realize that resting meant staying in bed. I thought it meant not to do strenuous activity. But guess it means more like bed rest. The only times in my life when I’ve stayed in bed have been when I’ve been too sick like with a high fever. So next time I get sick I know what rest means and probably I’ll shorten the length of the illness by properly resting. Good to know, lol.

One fun thing I enjoy is looking on Zillow at local houses. I did that this morning and fantasized about living in a house again one day. Then I watched 3 episodes of a series called Home. So cool! I loved the sustainable house that’s built within a greenhouse. It was amazing! I also napped. I had a hot bath with a cup of cinnamon tea and a book. I ate super healthily too. It’s so wonderful to not feel so miserable. I am so thankful that my body still heals fairly well. What a relief. I’m so happy and it’s like the sun is shining again, lol. I want to dive in and get all kinds of shit done, but I’m being careful.

Tomorrow I will test the waters more and finish a few things like my quarterly goals and catching up on the forums in Conscious Growth Club (CGC). Life has been a blur since the end of November. So many changes and loss in a short period of time, then being sick along with the rise of the pandemic for even more drastic change. Grief and thankfulness what a mix of emotions and such big shifts so quickly. It’s okay to slow it down and catch my breath for a minute.

I am so incredibly grateful for our good fortune, there are so many people in my life who have helped me so much by just being themselves, kind, caring, thoughtful, generous, big-hearted people, they’re everywhere. I wouldn’t have stayed the course without them. I know what…I’m gonna start a journal where I name all of the people I’m thankful for and why. I can do an entry/person a day. Doesn’t that sound so amazing! It will be so uplifting and healing.

I ordered a book One Year to a Writing Life by Susan M. Tiberghien. I’m wanting to improve my skills. I’m in the writing group in CGC, but I haven’t made any of the meetings yet, but now I aim to with no job to interfere. I’m beginning to get excited about making further progress on my path with a heart.

There are few impediments now, it’s surprising to me how life can hurl you towards what you are wanting in unimaginable ways. I’ve had to pick my jaw up off the floor so many times since joining CGC. I’ve gained more courage, clarity, and trust causing me to take more aligned action. Things are happening faster. The universe works in mysterious ways that’s for sure.

Anyhow, I’m feeling immensely grateful. I’m so appreciative. Loving life in all of its twists and turns, there’s always beauty and grace right around the corner.