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The Logical Heart Knows Best

Another lovely day on the balcony. I’m enjoying journaling outside. I haven’t brought the laptop out there yet, maybe tomorrow I’ll see how that goes. The weather is so comfortable here. The snow isn’t bad and the summers aren’t too hot, I love experiencing all four seasons. I’m so anxious to be outside on my nature walks again, soon my little pretty, soon, lol.

I’m also anxious about places opening up for business now. I hope there isn’t another surge. I’m staying home except for grocery shopping and walks. I hope people who can work from home get to continue to do so. I’m so thankful that we’re still okay and our family is too.

I’m thankful I had library books checked out so I get to read all of them because they’re not due back for the time being. I’m loving being able to read so much! I used to be a voracious reader and now I have the chance to feast on books again!

I’m feeling like I have the energetic capacity to listen to music more often now too. For the longest time I was so overstimulated that whenever I had downtime, I just wanted quiet and stillness. I also had no desire to read during that time either. I was worn down, worn out, and burned out. I’m so happy that I turned that corner and I’m now wanting to engage more with life especially because now I have the chance to with no interference.

My plan is to listen to a new song every day. Fun! I also downloaded the Tik Tok app to see what that’s about. I know it’s for youngsters, but I’m curious.

I began working on an exercise from a book I’m reading/doing Walking in this World. I’d started reading this book 3 years ago, but only got through 2 chapters, so I began chapter 3 today. I will make a collage to help me figure out a problem that’s bothering me and then journal about the collage. I didn’t have a poster board so I taped together 2 unfolded cereal boxes. I already have magazines I got using airline points for the purpose of making vision boards/collages. Something to look forward to doing tomorrow, yay!

I did the last journaling exercise from the 1st chapter from One Year to a Writing Life. It asked what do you truly feel today? Write a journal entry reaching from the depths within.

Surging Beauty

Begin here. I feel like I need to drape myself in a handmade patchwork quilt snuggled in a nest of pillows on the hearth of a huge fireplace crackling with a cozy fire while sipping chai cocoa (if there’s such a beverage).

There is a resignation to this limbo of feeling almost well, but not quite there yet. It’s taunting me and testing me. If I’m too optimistic and increase my activity I pay later with the exhaustion creeping back in.

It’s been almost 5 years since I last knew normal.

Now this viral fallout adding more weight and unpredictability to the mix is disheartening. But each day I hang on and cling to every scrap of beauty I encounter and forge ahead cherishing everything I have and the things I can do.

It makes everyone and everything that much more precious. Though I want to despair, I can’t because it’s all too beautiful.

So much love surging through always.

I FaceTimed with my daughter, I love her and miss her so much! I’m so proud of her! I wish we lived closer though, maybe one day. I’m grateful every time we get to video chat like that, it still amazes me, the technology we have.

I was more fatigued today so took a break and watched Anne with an E, the first episode. It was wonderful! It had me all verklempt. I loved the 1985 series of Ann of Green Gables too. I must’ve watched it when it was in production on TV. I really identify with her character.

I still have my thankful for humans journal entry left to do tonight so I can close that open loop. So I’m gonna get on that now.

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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