Out of the Maze

The Logical Heart Knows Best

Gosh, I hope I already had the virus because people are getting lax in social distancing and mask-wearing here. To be more careful I’m now limiting my walks to the hill nearest our complex and looping around the trail that’s in the meadow as opposed to the sidewalk path. There are fewer people there.

I grocery shopped tonight and others were not following the arrows/traffic pattern in the store and many were maskless, they did not distance themselves. I still can’t understand why people don’t believe in science yet believe in conspiracy theories. There are objective, provable facts that are indisputable which science has shown us. These are strange and revealing times. I spend more time shaking my head these days, lol. Sigh.

I’ve been eating more vegan raw and am feeling the shift in my energy, I’m more alert, even-keeled, satisfied, and peaceful. I feel vibrant and crispy, juicy, ha! I’m able to concentrate better and shift gears more quickly increasing my productivity. It feels really good and it’s so delicious eating fresh fruits and veggies. Nom nom nom.

I’m so glad I got the masks from Etsy, I feel more protected in them because they also conceal more of my face so it’s harder for people to tell my race on my walks. I know it’s a remote possibility, but I do have a slight fear of being harassed because I’m Asian. I’d say it’s a valid fear, but I don’t dwell on it, but you never know. Another good reason to stay closer to home on my walks.

I went grocery shopping a day early because Drue could bring the bag of dirt up the stairs for me tonight, yay! I got dirt! And I got some moonflower seeds too. I wanted to get sunflowers, but I don’t think the balcony gets enough sun for them. I need to do some research on what to grow. I saved avocado pits and am trying to sprout them suspended with toothpicks in empty Qui yogurt jars filled with water. So miraculous to see them grow. I placed them with the Groot-like celery which is growing shoots from its trunk, yay! I give it kisses and tell it how cute it is.

I listened to several audiobooks on writing during my walks and I’m writing a lot every day. It’s rewarding knowing that I’m actually doing what will help me move faster and increase my skills on my path with a heart. Every day I’m releasing more and more stuck energy and getting more into a positive creative flow.

I’m believing in myself again. My trust is returning.

For so long I’ve been blocked and stuck, I’d progress and then hit another wall with the same pattern repeating, like a maze. It feels like I’m out of the maze for the moment, lol. That reminds me of how I’d always ask the kids if they wanted to go to the corn maze in the fall, of course, they did! But somehow we never went, it’s like the holidays swallowed up the time and before I knew it, the corn maze had gone by, it was Christmas already. That happened year after year. One day I’ll surprise them with a corn maze excursion and we’ll have a good laugh. One of the reasons we didn’t go was because they’d have days where it would be a haunted corn maze and that was too scary.

I’m so thankful to be out of my own personal haunted corn maze.

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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