Hail and Godzilla

Something we need to be aware of is we’re all so different in our personalities, neurology, and life experiences that we may not have the same results or responses as others and that’s okay. We just have to figure out through trial and error what works for us individually. Thankfully there’s abundance and a wide-ranging variety of personal development methods to choose from. We can even innovate and come up with our own unique methods and approaches to attain the results we want.

My partner often comments on how different we are when viewing a movie or playing a video game, for example. I will be totally immersed like I’m right there in it with it happening to me, I get all worked up and it’s like I become the characters and experience what they’re experiencing. He, on the other hand, is detached and is more of an observer and has a layer of separation. He says he’s entertained, but he’s not so into it that he gets all worked up. He says it must be exhausting to be me, lol. He says he’s never met anyone who gets so absorbed and sucked into the experience of it all as I do.

Can a person learn to be more emotional, or is it just something we’re born with? Does it matter?

Some people are innately less emotional and they’re more into thinking and logic according to personality profiling. That doesn’t mean they’re not able to empathize though, they’re just less emotional. So we’re all different and just because you aren’t as emotional doesn’t mean there’s anything that’s wrong or needs correction. Unless it’s causing problems then why worry about it?

Just as long as you know yourself and are connected to the level of emotions you do experience and heed them accordingly so you can navigate, then it’s cool. We’re all unique, it’s beautiful!

For the longest though I was disconnected from my emotions and that’s a different issue altogether than just being naturally less emotional. I’m so thankful I got it all back in sync again and am able to maintain clarity and navigate with my logical heart, which requires being fully connected and aligned with your mind, heart, body, and spirit where your emotions play an integral part.

So while I’m all curled up with the covers around my neck all anxious during a suspenseful scene of a movie and Drue is placidly watching then peeking over at me smiling because I’m so afraid, it doesn’t mean that one way of experiencing is preferable to the other. It’s just different.

These days in my personal life I’ve been enjoying having emotions. There have been large swathes of time in my past though when I wished I were a robot. And with the pandemic, being a robot would certainly be easier for sure. I limit my rumination about it to ever smaller portions of the day, it can be so depressing and it’s out of my direct control, so I shelve it away. In the meantime, I’m making the best of it.

And that’s what I tell myself in general. Just do what you are able and make the best of it. It doesn’t have to be overly complicated.

I’m loving watching Anne with an E. It’s reminding me to keep focusing on the basics, the simple beauty that’s present in each moment. It’s a choice we have, to appreciate what’s now and make the best of whatever situation we’re in from the depths of pureness in our hearts, like Anne of Green Gables. That’s a character who lived from her heart for sure!

I’m thankful, my daily routine is beginning to congeal. I didn’t get a walk in today because it rained/hailed, and the sun was shining too while it did. It thundered and lightninged as well! That’s a rarity here. I was on the balcony journaling when it hit, how exhilarating! The hail was so cute and tiny, bouncing everywhere noisily. It got so chilly too! It lasted for about 15 minutes, then it got all muted grey. When it gets like that I always envision Godzilla appearing from behind the foothills, I don’t know why, lol. Instead of a walk I did stretching to progress towards doing splits.

I listened to instrumental music while journaling which is new for me, it was nice. I’m creating a day to day that is nurturing, enriching, therapeutic and transformative. Each day I wake up and I’m happy to greet the day, like when I’d wake up early on Saturdays to watch cartoons when I was a kid. I don’t want this feeling to end.

I’ve got 2 things left to do in my routine, the typing practice that makes me sigh and Duolingo Japanese which is fun! Gonna hop to that now 😀