Switch It Up

I kept hearing the expression in my head this morning, “You got up on the wrong side of the bed,” my mother used to say to me. I had a headache that wasn’t going away. I journaled and kept trying to forge ahead but found myself looking up houses on Zillow, a pleasurable escape, to see if that would help it go away, lol.

I considered going for a walk, going in the sun on the balcony, or just taking a nap. I finally settled on taking ibuprofen along with phenylephrine, eating a salad, and watching Anne with an E, then a hot bath. That did the trick!

Then it was time to attend my first Conscious Growth Club concert, where members perform, we watch, socialize, and have fun on a group video call! It was amazing! We have some multitalented people onboard in CGC. Impressive!

Now I’m catching up on the things I postponed due to my headache and irritability. I was grouchy earlier and I hate that. It’s such a relief when I feel better. I probably should have given in and taken a nap, but I was like a naughty child sleep fighting. I always think of Ron Swanson from Parks and Rec literally sleep fighting, so hilarious.

I had to let go of the day I’d originally planned and surrendered to feeling blah. Once I gave in, the day got easier and I quickly felt better. I prepped veggies for salads and baked some potatoes. I planted the leftover celery stalk center in a pot on the balcony. I still have Groot-like celery indoors, it’s so cute! I did something totally different than planned and that shifted my energy.

I forget how important it is to be flexible and not be so militant and perfectionistic. It’s okay to miss some things on your list. Sometimes a more chill relaxed day is just what’s needed. Maybe the grouchies are a signal that it’s time for a break. Like little kids when they start throwing tantrums because they need a nap, lol.

And maybe we adults do a little bit of the same things we did when younger. Like if we’re about to make a leap in our skills and learning we regress a little beforehand like children often do before a developmental leap. Equilibrium and disequilibrium, we’re always in flux.

Taking a more gentle, forgiving approach can be helpful instead of powering through as long as you don’t get totally derailed. And if you do, then maybe that path wasn’t suited to you. I’ve powered through to the point where it’s been damaging so I err on the side of being kind to myself. I’m still learning through experimenting, ways that help keep me healthy, sane and on purpose ?

Every time I looked outside I wanted to be out there, but I didn’t have it in me. I checked in with myself, imagining all of the activities, and feeling my way from within before settling on what to do next. When I have that luxury of decision that’s how I figure out what’s best for me. It’s like I go, ahhhh, that one, it clicks.

I decided today would be a “day off.” After I finish this, I’m gonna squish down in the futon, finish my Thankful for Humans journaling, a writing exercise and then read stuff on my phone. I’m just completing the items that I’ve formally committed to doing every day. And I’m gonna eat some Troll Laffy Taffy! There are different flavors from the originals, tropical ones too! When I first tasted them I was whisked back to my teenage years, disco balls, roller skating, rainbows, shiny belts, suspenders, leg warmers, toe socks, lip smackers, cotton candy, and unicorns, lol! Delightful!

Then after Drue gets home we’ll watch some TV before bed. We began watching Upload this week. Cool premise, it’s charming and funny. There’s so much to choose from with these streaming services, we’re rich!

I listened to electronic chill while journaling on the balcony this morning. It’s so wonderful to be getting back into music, listening, and learning guitar(slowly, lol). I’d love to get back into singing, but that’ll have to wait until we have a house. Oh, I could research on midis and electronic music though. That’s on my someday, maybe list along with animation. There’s so much I want to explore yet, even though I’m not a spring hamster, I still want to soak up life.

Sometimes I wish I wouldn’t have found the word number counter on here, heh. I check it to see how many I’ve written and want to write more but damn it, I’m tired! I told myself to blog earlier today, but my vibe wasn’t right, too grrr. I keep switching up my routine to see what flows best.

Gonna go dive into the fluffy futon now with a journal, phone and taffy, yay!