Keep Going

We were just trying to recall how we celebrated this date last year. We’d just returned from my daughter’s graduation in New York I remembered, but otherwise, we drew a blank. I pulled out my calendar sheets, I print some for free every year from online templates to keep track of things, it’s my planner. I saw that I was working so we didn’t do anything, I was doing nights as a nurse and had two jobs, one part-time and the other PRN.

I was amazed that it was only last year, it feels like we’ve lived through a lot in the months since. I breathed a sigh of relief so thankful our personal life has changed so much for the better since then. I had to get over my fear and just quit what wasn’t working then everything began falling into place. I took the next logical step and other unanticipated support would help me even more.

I would believe I was stuck, yet I kept trying and picking away through trial and error until bit by bit it began to work and now suddenly I’m free. We enjoyed our day together, so vastly different from last year. Each day I feel more vitality returning to me. I’m feeling more and more like myself again.

If you are considering a major change in your life, yet you feel stuck and don’t know where to begin, just start. If it’s too scary, start with something small. Do some research. Brainstorm, journal about it, write down pros and cons, define the problems, and ways you can solve them. What result do you desire? What would it take to arrive at that result? What are some small actions you can accomplish to make progress in the right direction?

I never gave up and even when I had little time or energy I kept at it. I began this blog when I was working a fulltime job along with extra part-time jobs while also raising a family. I researched, read, and worked on personal development over the years. I invested in joining Conscious Growth Club because I knew it would help me stay the course and I would learn and grow faster.

There were countless days when I wanted to give up, the exhaustion, the money problems, the difficult people, the drama I still encountered no matter how I tried to improve myself and the situations, it was an ongoing struggle. I kept at it, stood my ground, kept persevering, communicating, maintaining healthier boundaries and it gradually got better.

Everything began improving more rapidly once I began planning our move to Colorado and that’s when I joined CGC too. Since we moved here it’s been a whirlwind and I can attest that once you decide and take actions that are loving of you, the universe steps in to support you. It feels really scary, you can’t guarantee that it will work out, but it’s better to try than to stay in a situation you know is wrong for you. I am so thankful every day.

The most important practice is to check in with yourself routinely, be honest and truthful. Clarity is required to be able to decide which direction to take. Other influences will try to manipulate your course, you’ll get confused and distracted if you don’t keep tuned in to your truth to be able to do what’s aligned for you. Luckily your feelings won’t allow you to stay complacent. They will keep nagging at you until you honor them and make the loving changes that are needed to do right by you.

It isn’t easy, but there is always help along the way if you’re open to it and actively seek it. Like Conscious Growth Club and all of the free resources anyone with a computer or a library has access to. It will take work and perseverance, establishing new habits and practices, facing fear and taking action, but every bit will be worth it.

I am now working on what I want to and have a chance to create something better with my life. Each day I’m getting nearer. Yay!