Hearts Out

The posts I’ve been seeing on social media have been fascinating. I would love to share them with a psychologist and have them explain what defense mechanisms, projection, and manipulative tactics are being used to have such skewed perceptions. It’s getting wilder as we go along since 2016, lol. I remain incredulous.

I finished reading Deviate by Beau Lotto; it was fascinating. I love his recommendation to stop your automatic thoughts and then question them. Stop and become someone who doesn’t know for a minute, so you’ll be open to a different perception or perspective. It delves into the fact that we never see things as they really are. It’s always our interpretation of things. This book applies to our times and explores the neuroscience of our perceptions. He says that our brains are deluded and for us to adapt and progress; we need to deviate and choose our delusions to take back control of the brain, which has a tendency to run on automatic.

Another statement someone made to me recently also had me digging deeper. There’s the idea that if you do good that a higher power will reward you and another idea of karma, what goes around comes around and then the idea of if you put good into the world then it comes back to you, the law of attraction style. But that is all agenda-based. You’re doing good in hopes of a positive reward for you when it’s framed that way.

I like the agendaless view that you do loving, helpful things because it feels right, and it fills you with joy by sharing, caring, and helping. You’re doing it just because that’s what love does. No trying to win brownie points or a place in heaven. You do it because of love and that’s all. Love loves to love, lol.

People reveal that they’re hijacked by their primitive automatic responses, judging by what I’ve been reading. Yet, if you confront them, they feel justified and won’t budge or question themselves. They don’t deviate enough to adapt, innovate, and progress, as Beau Lotto prescribes. So it seems racists are stuck in their delusions and they’re even acting like they’re being victimized when confronted and called out. I’m often scratching my head trying to comprehend it, then I shrug and give up because it makes little sense, lol.

I hope lasting change comes this time. Hopefully, we’ll deviate enough to make genuine progress.

I don’t know what else to write about. I’m exhausted. I’m cutting back on caffeine. Guess that’s not helping, lol. I went grocery shopping tonight and people are not social distancing. Good thing most wore masks. I fear for us. I love humans, but we have a long way to go. We are a mess mostly and it is a disappointment, lol. I still have hope, but dang people!

The book I’m reading is called Refuse to Choose, and it’s fun so far. I bought some markers, post-its, and a big bound book with unlined paper to put ideas in for the exercise portions of the book. I can’t wait to work on it tomorrow! We’re also gonna read The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes by Suzanne Collins.

I feel weird because I’m getting a much-needed long overdue break, where I can restore my health and enjoy simple pleasures while there’s so much heartbreak and trauma happening in the world. That’s why I want to keep trying to figure out how best I can help, to love the world because I am compelled to love for love’s sake. Getting healthy is part of that, so no need to feel bad about taking care of me.

Gonna go watch a movie now, Knives Out, lol. Sounds violent? I’d rather have Hearts Out, heh.