Boss Body

The Logical Heart Knows Best

Today when I woke up, I had an obeying what my body tells me kind of day. I promised to listen to it and trust it instead of being a dictator. It’s become ingrained in me since childhood to be disciplined and push myself, keep going and going no matter what. I’ve gotten into the habit of adjusting to discomfort so that it becomes a new baseline for me. I can be falling apart and suffering but ignore it or shrug it off and adapt to it. So today I vowed to pay attention and respect my body.

It made for a more peaceful and productive day. I must keep practicing this. “Hey body, what do you feel like doing now?” Body says, “Dude, I’m tired. Stretch me out across that futon for a little while, will ya?” Okie Dokie body! “Nice, hey…I need some endorphins, too. Show me those fancy mountain mansions on Zillow, stat!” Happy body. Better day.

I set the bar lower than usual today and I will continue this until my body tells me all systems go for real, then I will ramp it up again. This is the last relapse I want to have, so from here on out I am playing it extra safe.

I’m on my personal timetable now. I’m taking the pressure off, putting on the brakes, and listening to myself and my body. Except for doing my daily blogging, I will disobey my body so I can keep my blogging commitment. My body is telling me to take the laptop and type while lying down while blogging, ok, let me try…not too bad, maybe I could get used to this. Ah, my legs, back, neck, and shoulders feel relieved.

My body wants a long hot bath and some vegging out to TV, lol. No, body, no! Must blog.

I researched how to care for my balcony plants. They’re all still alive, yay! I have an idea of a way to grow more plants on the railing. I need to get some zip ties to secure the containers. It gets quite windy here. I love watching plants grow and caring for them. The moonflowers are starting to tendril. The basil, jalapeno, rosemary, and lavender are thriving. I dead-headed the geranium and gazania. The portulaca are so vibrant and the white mums are pristine. They make me so happy.

All that’s left on my kitchen counter is the avocado seeds I’m trying to sprout. I tried planting the celery, but they didn’t make it. I planted the wheatgrass today to see if it would grow in dirt or does it only last for a few cuttings?

I have watched nothing today. I’m watching stuff with Drue after he gets home, and that’s it. During the day I will read or listen to audiobooks instead, or maybe a movie now and then, but no series for now. One week I’d like to marathon Studio Ghibli movies. I’d also like to watch The Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter and all the Star Trek series and spin-offs too. OMG, that’s a lot! They have all the Godzillas too!

I love watching the swallows doing acrobats and twittering at sunset. I’m so glad I can see the foothills against the shifting sky. Sometimes the clouds move so fast, like the speeded-up time-lapse skies in nature shows. Every day is stunning here, every single day. The weather and sky can change in the blink of an eye. It’s amazing, I have a nature show from my balcony.

I keep looking at the houses on Zillow and imagine living in the mountains surrounded by land, meadows, trees, sky, all to ourselves. That’s the dream. I could sing at the top of my lungs and frolic with the butterflies, grasshoppers, ladybugs, bunnies, crickets, bats, crows, swallows, and bees all to myself. I could be an almost full-time hermit, lol. I could grow all kinds of plants, a vegetable garden, fruit trees, herbs, flowers, ohhh sunflowers!

For now, I’m so happy to be where we are. I daydream because my body needs to rest and I can’t go for my nature walks, so I go on adventures in my imagination. I feel like I’m outside all day because it’s so sunny in this apartment and I keep the blinds open. It keeps me cheery.

I’ve been eating a bowl of fruit for breakfast every day this week. It’s been a lovely way to begin my day. I’ve been journaling there, too. The sun, sky, and wind nourish me as I get to go outside every day. My body approves.

My body is the boss for now because I can’t be trusted, lol. Okay body, what’s next? Vegging out to TV? I can do that, yay!

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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