How’s it Going?

I just read a blog post about checking in with yourself, to pause and reflect on how you’re doing. My guess is that most of us are feeling concerned and are having an underlying level of anxiety that we continue to grapple with in varying intensities according to what we read in the news or what’s happening in our lives due to all of the shifts happening and with no end in sight.

How am I doing? I’m holding up, focusing on being as productive and healthy as I can because that gives me some sense of control. But really I’m sad and disappointed with a large portion of humanity. I’m confused by the irresponsibility displayed by countless many. At first, I felt like I was on a roller coaster, feeling all of those grieving emotions, you know Kubler Ross style. Now I’m resigned to the facts, we’re in this for the long haul and I’ve given up on hoping that people or the government will behave sensibly.

I’ve decided to focus on the things I do have control over and to only engage with those people who are sensible, loving, empathetic, logical, and kind.

Otherwise, my life is flowing well. I’m able to do research, read, and work on projects. I’m socializing and participating in activities online, I’m more social than I’ve been in a long while. My lifestyle has improved over the past months, I’m getting the most rest I’ve had in ages and I’ve also achieved my healthy eating goals. I’ve managed to shift careers more quickly than I believed possible. I live in a beautiful, safe, nature-filled area and am so thankful. I love our apartment though I do want a house in the future.

My biggest frustration has been my health, but I am getting treatments so we’ll see if they work. For the time being, I have to limit my physical activity so that’s a bummer.

I’m so extremely thankful that our family is healthy and safe.

I’m most proud of the fact that I’ve blogged every day this year. I long to create a business that will enrich, enliven, entertain, and help others in a deeply impactful way, but I haven’t figured that out yet. I want to learn how to be a better writer and I’d like to return to some form of artistic self-expression like singing, music or painting, drawing.

What attracts my attention these days? Skyping with the kids and simple pleasures like a hot bath, watching the birds and the sky, eating berries in the sun on the balcony, growing flowers, writing, and Conscious Growth Club.

So much is stellar right now in my personal life, but the world at large is definitely not, so it’s unsettling that I’m having some of the most relaxing and productive days doing what I want, that I couldn’t have imagined would be happening for me while there’s so much tragedy for others. I just stay appreciative, thankful, and hope for the best for us all.

What would I like to experience next? I want to be healthy, clear-minded, symptom-free, and energetic as I used to be. I want to enjoy creating things that enhance and improve my life as well as others. I want to express myself in a more expansive creative way that brings joy to others too. I’d love to be able to travel and explore when we’re in the all-clear. I want to experience someone saying that I helped them feel better about themselves or helped them see things in a more loving, healthy, and forgiving way. I want to run barefoot in the grass in my own yard surrounding my new house, lol. I want to laugh and play with beautiful friends and family. I want to give ginormous long squishy hugs to them. I want to experience selling my first book. I want to learn to play guitar. I want to experience a sane, loving, healthy world.

What do I crave? Playfulness, silliness, and fun while connecting with others. Doing active energizing things like pillow and sword fights, dancing, playing games, singing together, telling stories, joking around, having interesting, thought-provoking, mind-expanding conversations, exploring possibilities and being curious and engaged with life, wanting to know more and do more, seeing how far you can go and what kind of mischief you can be a part of, lol.

I’m faring pretty well despite all that’s not going well in the world. How about y’all?

I want to feel connected to people who may be reading my blog, so feel free to contact me anytime, let me know how you’re doing and I’ll reply back ?

Michelle Miyagi
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