The Truth of Love

What to write about today? It’s difficult to ignore what’s going on in the world, it’s hard to keep it light, positive, and hopeful. I find myself grasping for higher purpose and meaning while the world spins further into the abyss. I read about friends and former coworkers who are losing their family members to COVID 19 left and right.

There is so much trauma and sorrow and all I can do is send my love, there’s nothing I can do to ease the suffering, it’s heartbreaking. I begin to question what can I do about any of this? Anything can happen and there’s nothing you can do about it. So I surrender and trust that if there is something more I could do to ease the suffering of the world, I will be led to it and I will know how to help. So I stay open and willing while maintaining groundedness and peace. I continue to take care of me so I can be functional and fortified while I listen for the call. I work on what is logical and appropriate while seeking to discover more along the way. I ask what’s the point of my existence and how can I serve the highest good in the world.

So I already finished all of my robot malfunction looking PT exercises today. I researched my current interest, sexual abuse by watching the Children of God documentary, a cult that’s still in existence, now called The Family. The members are brainwashed and engaged in abusive practices which also included sexual abuse of children along the lines of what a forum member of a group I was in was advocating last week. I was astounded that they believed in this practice. That’s what led me to do further research on this subject because I believe that advocating adults having sex with kids is harmful, no matter how you try to spin it. To advocate it is actively promoting the harm of children.

So I’m trying to figure out how someone could believe that is a good idea? I’m trying to understand why people become brainwashed so easily. Especially because this applies to people who believe all of the conspiracy theories, the Trump supporters and anti-vaxxers, anti-maskers. How do people become so easily swayed towards harmful ideas and practices? How did Hitler brainwash the masses? How does it happen? It’s scary to me and if I can understand it better, maybe it’ll be less scary. Maybe I can figure out how to reason with those who are brainwashed beyond recognition. Maybe I can find out if it’s even worth trying? Maybe I’ll discover how to better navigate during these rapidly shifting times? I just want people to be sane again and then wonder, maybe they were never sane? Maybe the truth is being unearthed by these extreme times?

I begin to question myself because I’m surrounded by so much that does not make a lick of sense to me. Am I the only one who’s having a problem with all of the lies, twisted logic, vitriol, and harm? As each day passes, the world gets more and more preposterous, ghastly, and unstable. I feel like I’m surrounded by people who are out of their minds. I’m just waiting for them to pull out their torches and pitchforks any day now.

Then I remember to take a deep breath and let it go and do what I need to in order to maintain my sanity and peace. I count my blessings and wish everyone well. I appreciate all of the loving, caring, conscientious people in my life, who have managed to stay aligned with loving kindness, who are responsible, accountable, and committed to creating a more equitable, ethical, humane world.

I recall all of the people from throughout my life who have made a difference, who have been empathetic, patient, caring, kind, compassionate, who love deeply, and who have advocated for those in need who could not advocate for themselves. Those people who keep persevering and helping even when it seems futile. I’ve worked alongside so many in the healthcare profession, some stellar, forthright people with highly evolved characters, people I admire and look up to. My heart goes out to y’all now during these harrowing times. The general public just can’t comprehend how difficult it is, what healthcare workers do, and what workers are going through now during the pandemic.

Instead of dwelling on the insanity I focus on all of the love I know is still here and that I’ve known and appreciated throughout my life. I summon all of the love and let it soothe me and fortify me so I can be steady, compassionate, and kind while also standing up for what I believe will actually help. I stand strong in the truth of that love and the solidity of peace grounds me so I can keep going, keep believing in the good that’s always here, so it can come to me, so I can hear the voice of compassion, sanity, and higher love and do its bidding. There’s always hope.