Small Ways

The Logical Heart Knows Best

I went for a walk today! Yay! It’s been two long months. I felt like I’d been set free as I climbed to the top of the hill. I waited until sunset so it would be cooler. I saw some bunnies, birds, and a few wildflowers. They mowed the meadow hill and the grass has turned brown, it’s been so dry. I also found where they’ve painted more rocks in the complex, lots of Toy Story ones, so adorable. I will now go for a walk every day and see what happens if my body approves.

This is the best I’ve felt since February, I’m so thankful! I hope it continues. Maybe we can go hiking on a trail at one of the nearby parks soon. I’m so ready for a change of scenery even if it’s just a park we’ve never been to before. There are so many here, we’re so fortunate. The way things are going, we’ll have to be masking up and social distancing for years. I don’t expect we’ll be able to travel safely for quite a while either, so it’s nice there’s so much beauty in our own backyard.

I’m concerned about all of the wildfires and blackouts in California. I hope everyone stays safe. It’s such a helpless feeling. Nothing I can do about it except send love.

I really don’t have much to write about. Some days it feels pointless. You know those days when apathy sets in, the “why bother” days when you’re thankful for your creature comforts but nothing inspires you. The days when you feel so small and insignificant, where nothing you do makes that much of a difference. The outside world is so chaotic and you just want to retreat into your own bubble, away from the insanity. You feel like you’re a little ant surrounded by towering giants, what can you do about anything really. So you keep your chin up by dreaming, appreciating the simple life, and focusing on the small things you can do in your own little part of the world, to stay centered, hopeful, peaceful, and loving. You keep going and contribute in your own small ways as best you can. Even if it’s writing blog posts like a dweeb, sending them out into the void. Maybe others are feeling the same as you and then we don’t feel so alone in our struggles. It’s a way to stay connected to your humanity 🙂

I watched another documentary today called Holy Hell and another episode of The Keepers, some things that happen in real life are simply incredible, you’d think they’d have to be fiction but shockingly they’re only too real, chilling and tragic. Last night we watched Lovecraft Country, I yelped and screamed during it lol, fun! Then we watched John Oliver. I typically fall asleep towards the end of those political type shows, but I managed to stay awake, barely, heh.

Oh, the key lime hummus was yummy! I’m gonna whip up some coconut cream and have it layered on some Biscoff cookies with the hummus to simulate pie. I plan on making avocado chocolate pudding too. This week is for desserts. Yay!

I wonder what we’ll watch tonight, I get to pick. So many choices. I think I want something light and fun, maybe a comedy or fantasy. We shall see. We may just watch episodes of Community.

I’m so thankful I now have the time and money to treat my health issues. I’m finally making real progress. the universe works in strange and mysterious ways. I’m gonna go do my last set of new PT exercises now. They’re becoming more challenging and fun.

That’s all for now, got it done, just 137 more blog posts to go 😀

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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