Standby Mode

The Logical Heart Knows Best

I’m missing the outdoors. Making plans to drive to a park one day and sit outside, have a picnic, and soak it all in. The air quality has improved for now. I haven’t checked the news on the fires, I needed a break from all of the depressing stories.

I’ve been concentrating on my health which has meant restful and peaceful activities. Lots of reading and researching going on here, plus PT exercises. Sometimes I feel like I’m a pet left alone all day because I get excited to watch things from the window like the recycle truck lifting the dumpster and emptying it. I even have the urge to bark at it and sometimes do startling Drue, lol.

There was free furniture at an apartment across the way, I looked last night, nothing I wanted. That’s nice they put a note on it instead of just dumping it. We saw someone with a trailer collecting stuff for upcycling from the apartment dumpsters the other day which I was glad to see. People throw away perfectly good items instead of donating them. What a waste.

I really don’t want any heavy furniture while we’re living in apartments it’s too difficult to move. When we have a house though it will be wonderful to furnish it with items we like. Couches can be so uncomfortable though. I like LoveSac bean bags and plushy futons with lots of blankets and pillows, lol. It would be fun to have a ball pit or bouncy room and a room to rollerskate in too with a disco ball, bubbles, and psychedelic lights.

There have been many people moving in and out of apartments here. I got curious and looked at the apartment’s website to see availability. Most apartments are rented out now, the least vacancies I’ve seen in the almost 2 years we’ve lived here. I wonder if a lot of people are having to downsize?

I looked at houses on Zillow today and felt like I went on a little vacation. I felt all fancy, light, and breezy. Afterward, I took a long hot bath and pretended I was in one of the beautiful houses and read books, ahhh. I love imagining how I’d plant, landscape the yards and revamp the interiors. Some of the houses are just fun because they’re stuck back in time. I like guessing when the house was built too, fun. Some of the little camp type houses in the mountains can be super creepy too, they look haunted.

I recently resubscribed to audible, they had a special, roped me back in again, mainly because I wanted The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes which wasn’t available at the library. Then I got The Name of the Wind and  Entangled Life: How Fungi Make Our Worlds, Change Our Minds & Shape Our Futures with my other credits. They also have free selections now too, that’s really cool! I selected some of those as well. I have so many audiobooks checked out from the library on top of that. I need to get to listening to them. I need to find an activity to do indoors that I can multitask while listening. Maybe if I sit on the balcony and listen that would help me feel better about monotasking.

I’m considering getting an e-reader so I won’t have to check physical books out from the library during the pandemic. That way I can read in bed at night too without disturbing Drue. I’ve often wished I had one on nights when I can’t fall asleep.

I’ve decided the rest of this year will be sedate, simple and quiet, on standby mode, on the road to nowhere, like the Talking Heads song. I just looked this up on Wikipedia…

“I wanted to write a song that presented a resigned, even joyful look at doom,” recalls David Byrne in the liner notes of Once in a Lifetime: The Best of Talking Heads. “At our deaths and at the apocalypse… (always looming, folks). I think it succeeded.”

How fitting 🙂

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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