Behind the Curtain

The Logical Heart Knows Best

Looking at this photo I took while hiking at Roxborough Park last summer makes me wistful. So much has changed since then. Some changes are incredibly positive and some devastatingly negative. C’est la vie. I’m getting a lot of practice with letting go, staying in the moment, and being grateful for the simple pleasures that I’d typically take for granted. These days, so much has become even more precious, like fresh air, having the technology to keep connected with loved ones, being alive, safe, unscathed by natural disasters, a roof over our heads, and food in our bellies.

In my personal life, this is the most nurturing and peaceful time ever for me while outside in the world at large it’s boiling over, it’s like I’m watching a chaotic disaster movie mixed with a soap opera and reality TV, some things are so absurd I’m wondering when the man’s gonna step out from behind the curtain revealing it was all an elaborate prank, it’s really all an illusion like when Toto pulls back the curtain revealing the Wizard of Oz is only a man or when Jim Carrey’s character Truman Burbank discovers his world is not real in the Truman Show. I want to pinch myself to see if I’m dreaming.

Then I snap back and tell myself to make the best of it, there’s still time to turn it around, we may stabilize and change what we’re collectively doing to shift back to a more cohesive, unified, sane, humane, loving, responsible, ethical, compassionate, proactive, regenerative, sustainable world where we live in harmony with one another and the planet. Maybe we can do it? There’s still a chance we can do better than this. We have to.

I research and try to practice ways of living that might possibly be helpful for the environment. I vote. Being a better person is something I work on. I educate myself and try to seek a greater understanding. I donate. I strive to treat everyone with respect and kindness and stand up for what I believe will be helpful and don’t take part in things that aren’t aligned with my values and ethics, things that advocate for and promote harm or exploitation. I don’t know what else to do. It’s just not enough.

For anything to change, it has to be from a greater base of power, from our collective humanity. Everyone is so divided now. People are believing in so many falsehoods and behave in harmful ways. I wonder if the disasters occurring are a wake-up call so we’ll have no choice but to band together to save ourselves?

I get up every day and take care of this body, learn new things, and appreciate and savor all the beauty and abundance surrounding me while enjoying whatever interesting thing I can explore. I want to make it all better somehow. Every day my heart goes out to everyone wishing we could have heaven on earth. I long for a world where we care for everyone, reverently, and where we can work together to correct our mistaken practices so that we can nurture one another and the world.

How can I best help towards creating this more loving world? I suppose every little bit we each do will add up, eventually. I keep chipping away at it. It’s hard to see if anything is having an effect, but I keep on trying to figure it out and always will keep at it. It never hurts to keep aiming for more love, compassion, forgiveness, kindness, healing, unity, harmony, peace, and joy.

Come on 2020, I’m rooting for you. Let’s turn this around and shift this timeline back to something less apocalyptic. Make it so. ♡

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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