Beautiful Haze

The Logical Heart Knows Best

Wow, that felt good…I ran an errand, got out of the house, and was among people, a change of scenery. You begin to feel isolated after so many months of this. It was lovely to be around some hustle and bustle at Trader Joe’s. Then I stopped by Target too and joyfully snagged a few goodies to send my daughter, her birthday is coming up next month. I love Halloween, it’s my favorite holiday, so colorful, scary, and fascinating, thrilling.

After I got home I began watching a Netflix series called Never Have I Ever, it’s cute, nice, and light for a welcome change of pace. I also want to watch Cuties to see what all the fuss is about.

Then I read the news, why did I do that, Ruth Bader Ginsberg…she will be missed. I don’t even want to contemplate what’s gonna happen now.

I’m gonna throw myself back into a busy routine to keep myself distracted again. At least I’ll feel like I’m accomplishing something, I have control over that. There’s this contest I came across Rising Storytellers Search where you pitch your ideas for a series. https://risingstorytellerssearch.com/#landing The deadline is in 3 days though. It’s exciting to think about, but when it comes down to pitching story ideas, it’s a lot to develop. I can picture things in my head, but I haven’t tried to structure it out cohesively on paper. I’d like to try it sometime though, it seems like it would be so rewarding to see your story pulled from your imagination and brought to life for others to enjoy too.

I sang in the car today, that felt really good too. The mountains were covered in a thick haze from the wildfire smoke. It was still beautiful. I want to be able to explore the mountains more before we move from here. I don’t believe we’ll be staying here after all. There’s too much instability now to feel comfortable putting down roots here. We shall see what the rest of this year brings.

I have the urge to watch The Wizard of Oz around this time of year. They always aired it on TV every year close to Halloween. Such fun memories of pumpkins, autumn leaves, the first cold snap, costumes, trick or treating, spooky decorations, haunted houses, and so much candy. Trick or treat, smell my feet, give me something good to eat. On Saturday mornings we’d sit on the floor in front of the TV, watch cartoons and eat our sweet Halloween treats. It was so gratifying to dump our hauls of candy and compare, it was like treasure. Not a care in the world, well there was school, but otherwise, the most important thing was exploring, playing, and having fun.

I’m looking forward to baking cookies and sending a fun package to my daughter. I miss all the fun festivities and activities that we did as a family. We had so much fun together. I’m so thankful. Such wonderful memories.

I’m gonna try a new recipe Pumpkin Blondies, sounds yummy. I’m making myself want baked goods, ha. I just ate though, I’m still full. I don’t have anything else to write. Time to do my last set of PT exercises, ttfn.

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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