An Always

The Logical Heart Knows Best

It was a beautiful day, the air quality was good, so I went for a longish nature walk! It felt so good knowing that I have my body back, I can do stuff again! Maybe now I can add workouts back in too, I’m so thrilled! Maybe I can make some real progress now, it’s felt like I’ve been slogging through mud, now I’m roller skating, whee!

I partially listened to a book today called Fear by Thich Nhat Hanh. It discussed the temporariness of everything as in you can’t take it with you, the no birth and no death, only transformation in the ultimate reality. It emphasizes the importance of staying mindful and present while choosing our thoughts, words, and actions while facing our fears instead of running away and avoiding them. To accept that we all die and may get sick in the physical sense, but we keep on in the ultimate reality where there is no time and space, it’s a continuation, an always. I look forward to finishing it on my walk tomorrow. It’s a good book to help you let go and just be, very soothing.

Most of the other books I’d been listening to expired so I must check them out again. I am ridiculous, I have so many books partially read or listened to, lol. I’m not greedy at all, heh. I’m almost finished reading the book Give and Take, it’s helping me figure out how to have better boundaries about giving so I don’t burn myself out again, to be smarter about what helps givers stay energized and balanced.

On my walking path, there’s a section where there’s always a bunny and I was craning my eyes to see it and not startle it. I had my head turned, it wasn’t there, then I looked ahead and it was right in front of me, ha! It scrabbled away, sorry bunny I didn’t mean to scare you! I always miss the pet bunny and rats that my daughter had years ago when I see the wild bunnies and squirrels. I don’t want any pets though, (it’s so hard when they die, even if I know they’re always in the ultimate reality, plus I’m loving simplicity these days). Just plants for me, and I’ll admire and enjoy the wild creatures outside from a distance.

I’m so ecstatic to be able to exert myself now. I feel like I need to make up for lost time, but know that’s not wise, so I will continue at a gentle pace. I do want to make headway on practical matters though and not totally get off course. I have been loving the lightness, relief, and peace from not pressuring myself so much over the past two months, it’s been healing.

I feel really content, peaceful and happy today, I wish I could sprinkle this feeling over the world, soothing the cares away for a minute, bringing some joy and relief to all.

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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