Pinch or Splurge

I received my ballot today. Now I have to research what all these amendments and propositions are before I vote. I’m so thankful for the internet, it’s so helpful. What a luxury to have information at my fingertips.

I had the most fun dancing tonight to this.

The neighbor below us moved out so it’s temporarily vacant so I can dance as wildly as I wanna 😀 I get carried away and afterward, my heart is pumping and I’m breathing heavily, lol. It feels so good though!

We went grocery shopping tonight, so I got a late start blogging. I am so grateful every time we buy food. I remember all the times in my younger days when we’d have to bring a calculator to make sure we didn’t go over a certain amount. Now I am so happy to be able to buy food without worrying so much. I still have a being frugal mentality though and am mindful of my purchases. I don’t know if that will ever change because I believe in spending judiciously, no matter how much money we have. I also believe we are here to enjoy our lives too, so I do splurge sometimes, especially if it’s for some fun experience or exploration that is enriching and enlivening. I try to keep a balance to where I’m not always scrimping and pinching pennies, where I’m able to let go and spend money on fun stuff as well.

I wonder if there will ever be a point in my life when I’ll have enough money so that I don’t have anxiety about it at all? How much money would I need to feel like we’re set? I’ve read that we should have money saved up for retirement and hardships. I’ve got a lot of catching up to do. Time for me to get back at it, back into a more productive routine so I can make faster progress on building a business.

I was thinking today will I ever figure it out, how to make money doing what I’m really good at, that I love doing, that helps people the most. Do I need to go back to school? How would I manage that? What do I focus on right now? What’s a priority? Then I decide to just start back where I left off and get things done bit by bit as usual and eventually I’ll figure it out by continuing to take action.

My health is finally cooperating, so that will help me have the energy and focus to be able to complete at least one project this last quarter of the year. I am determined and will not give up on building my own business until I know I’ve really given it my best shot. Then if I fail, I will try something else.

Anxiety about the future hits me at times and I have to use my talking myself off the cliff skills, lol. I guess we’re all having to do that now. But right now everything is good so I concentrate on staying in the right now, which helps me breathe easier.

Time to draw and do my last PT exercise, then night-night time, ttfn.