Flex and Flow

I’ve been enjoying baking, it’s so tactile and comforting. It smells so yummy and it’s satisfying to have immediate results. I love watching the batter or dough puff and bubble, it’s like I’m doing experiments in a lab. Then I love imagining loved ones enjoying the goodies, such a simple thing that brings cheer. The apartment smells like chocolate chip cookies right now, it’s mood-lifting.

It’s so nice now that veganism is going more mainstream. I can find all the items I want in one store. Before I would make do and seldom make the extra trips to search for vegan items. Now I can get flax to substitute for eggs in baking, it works really well.

This will be day 289 of daily blogging, and then 77 more days left 🙂 I’m tired tonight and don’t feel like writing, but here I am, heh. I’d really rather be taking a long, hot bath with books and tea. I’ve decided it’s time to start setting an alarm every morning so I’ll get up earlier and have more of the day to get things done. It’s getting dark earlier, boo.

I’m listening to a book called Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay Gibson. It’s a good book about emotionally immature people in general, it can apply to anyone, not just parents. It helps us understand the reasons why people behave in an immature manner and defines it for us so we can recognize it and gives ways to address it, to cope with it. It also delves into the impacts of emotionally immature behavior on others. I will finish listening to it tomorrow. I’m also listening to a book called The Laws of Human Nature by Robert Greene which is fascinating. He gives many historical examples, so I’m learning a bit of history as well. It’s a longer book, but I’m over halfway done.

I could’ve listened to books while baking, but I’d just listened while going for my walk and I wanted some quiet so I could be fully immersed in the sensory experience of it all. I’ve had some anxiety popping up surrounding the future and unemployment, you know the usual making a living concerns that intrude upon most of us at times in our lives. I’m feeling more of a sense of urgency to complete projects and take bigger action steps especially now that my health is on the upswing.

On the agenda for tomorrow is researching the items on the ballot and then voting. I will deliver my ballot to the dropbox, it’s so close. Everything is so convenient here without us feeling like we’re in the hustle and bustle of city life, but with everything, we could possibly need within 5 miles. Including hiking in the foothills. We love it here.

I continue to be thankful that we’re all doing well, and I trust that it will continue and when the worries pop in I tell myself that it’s okay, it’s just a thought or a feeling and it will pass momentarily, then it does. I take deep breaths and concentrate on what is most empowering for me to focus on right now. I mull that over then take an action that helps. I give myself permission to be flexible and flow with where my energy takes me. That helps shift my energy towards a more positive and relaxed vibe so I am free to choose something more productive. It works like a reset. The anxious energy gets diffused and released, clearing the way to focus on solutions.

That’s why I baked again today to help clear some of that worrywart energy out. And Drue will be happy and surprised when he gets home because they’re for him. I also mailed the goodies I baked yesterday to our daughter. It’s been fun sending her goodies every week for her birthday month. Doing things that are nice towards loved ones and others also help us feel better. To love on others is an unparalleled joy.

That’s enough rambling, time to do my last set of PT exercises, play guitar and draw, woot. Until tomorrow.

Michelle Miyagi
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