Craving Novelty

The Logical Heart Knows Best

Today I went on a two-hour walk. The last time I went for such a long walk was the first week in April. It felt so good, and I am doing fine afterward, yay! It was so stunningly beautiful out; I drank it all in. I’m so thankful. I saw some squirrels, one was fussing at me as I passed, so cute. I saw a baby bunny and chickadees, sparrows, ducks, and geese. I took photos of some sweet bees buzzing some vibrant yellow wildflowers. There were green goose poop land mines on the path near the pond. I had to tread carefully, lol. The colorful autumn leaves were blanketing the ground. I especially love the leaves contrasting with the lush green grass. They have sprinkler systems in the green spaces flanking the paths so the grass stays lovely.

I’d kinda slacked off on some of the PT exercises the past few days, so I did them today and then some. I finished listening to Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents and this is a book I will purchase to refer to. It breaks things down in easy-to-understand ways and applies to dealing with any emotionally immature behavior. I believe anyone who reads this book would benefit from it.

It’s already almost ten pm. Where does the day poof away so quickly? The days have been zooming by faster and faster. I guess I don’t have enough novelty in my life right now, but then, who does? If we’re being responsible and safe, we’re not out gallivanting everywhere during the pandemic. It would be hard to forgive myself if I got deathly ill or got someone else sick while doing something frivolous. I’ve decided against going to the corn maze this year. It can wait until the pandemic is done. The cases are on an uptick here in Colorado.



The wind is howling outside, so ghostly. It’s stirring the blinds. They softly clatter with the draft from the cracks around the sliding door to the balcony. It’s been perfect fall weather this week. I love it, my favorite!

I’ve been watching High Maintenance when I eat supper every night when Drue’s at work. It’s so interesting because it has unique characters in every episode. The weed guy is the one consistent character, so you get peeks into the lives of all the people he sells weed to in New York City. The other night was an episode that must have been filmed right after the 2016 election. My stomach sank a little because here we are again, another election. What’s gonna happen? I’m really enjoying High Maintenance. The episodes are only half an hour which is good so I can still indulge but feel more productive because I’m not watching loads of TV.

When I was in my early twenties, I tried weed, but never liked it. I felt too far away. I couldn’t move and sometimes it felt like I couldn’t breathe. It scared me, made me paranoid, felt like I was going to die. It did not agree with me at all. No marijuana for me, blechy.

These days I’m not very much into altering my consciousness except by natural means, like exercising, meditating or going on nature walks, dancing or connecting with loved ones and laughing, playing. Drawing, playing guitar and singing also alter my state. I get into a hypnotic flow. Oh, and I get really sad and irritable sometimes when I haven’t eaten regularly or enough, but that’s random, it’s inconsistent, so weird. My family comments on it and they tell me I need to eat when they notice the sad, hollow demeanor, lmao. I ask, am I being mean? They say no, you just aren’t all chipper like normal, your eyes get desperate and sad. Omg, so I can change my consciousness to a sad puppy hangry by neglecting to feed myself. Ridiculous.

I am babbling about trivia, but it’s still writing. How many days are left? After today 76. I’m considering adding a video every day to the mix so I can get practice with that again. Should I start tomorrow? Ugh, it would probably help me a lot to do it, so I will commit. For the last 75 days of the year, I will add making a short video to my daily routine of blogging, dancing, playing guitar, and drawing. Regrets, lol. Ttfn 🙂

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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