Pedialyte is Grody

We didn’t have any Tylenol last night. Today I had to send Drue out after an hour of uncontrollable shaking I knew that further interventions were needed. I made myself drink more water, 2 bottles and a juice flavored water as well. We’d been mistakenly delivered those a few months ago and there was no way to trace them, so the simplest thing was to keep them. Now I’m so thankful we did because it’s easier to drink from a bottle when you’re shivering uncontrollably where your teeth are chattering violently. It was such a strange sensation, I couldn’t make it stop. I knew then that I was dehydrated and better get more fluids in me quickly. And then I sent Drue out for Tylenol, mint lip balm, Pedialyte, and popsicles. Yuck, Pedialyte tastes awful. I spent the day sleeping and dreaming, it was difficult to know when I was awake and asleep. Thoughts and images floated through my mind, many things, situations, and people I haven’t thought about in quite some time.

I could tell one dream was really a dream because it was in a place I’d never been before, but there were 3 comforting women admiring me and reassuring me about things in my past that I considered mistakes, but they were proud of me saying it was for a higher purpose and I’d done well.

And now here’s a boundary that needs to be learned better by men. It is also their responsibility to be able to think, problem-solve, and be caretakers too, it’s only human decency. The default excuse of, I’m not good at that, I’ve never done this before or that’s for women to do is not acceptable.

I’ve been thinking back to when my mother-in-law was sick with a stomach virus and how one of us really should have stayed with her overnight, it could have prevented a trip to the ER. I kept asking Drue if one of us should stay and he insisted she’d be fine. And actually, if anyone was gonna stay with her it was gonna be him. But he didn’t even entertain the thought.

If your loved one is languishing and sick, maybe it would be a good idea to anticipate their needs instead of having a delirious person instruct you what to do. There’s google these days and it’s not difficult to discover ways you can help.

I am feeling much better after the Pedialyte and pushing fluids. Now it’s time to try some toast again. Maybe tomorrow I’ll be more normal and can take a real bath instead of sponging off and changing my sweaty clothes. I would feel cold and clammy, then hot and sweaty. I’d kicked my covers all over the place and was too weak to retrieve them. When I began shivering I had to get Drue to come and cover me up. It’s so weird feeling so helpless and vulnerable, your body doing stuff that makes you curse. Today there’s been less profanity coming from my mouth so that’s an improvement.

I hope tomorrow I will be able to stay awake and take a bath. Goals, lol.