Snow and Hot Cocoa

The Logical Heart Knows Best

Today was even better, I was able to laugh and joke, my energy is returning, but I still ended up being horizontal for most of the day. I cooked a pot of red beans, some brown rice, and rose and baked some Rhodes rolls, then I was pooped out. Not back to my routine yet. I was able to drink herbal tea today too, it’s agreeing with me again. I sampled the hot cocoa with cinnamon, it was delicious. I have other flavors too and will be drinking them in this snowy weather.

Every time it snows I think of the holidays and want to celebrate, lol. I’m not used to the snow yet. I want to bake pies, cookies and eat holiday foods, I even imagine fruit cake along with cranberries, cornbread stuffing, and gingerbread men. I wonder to myself, is it too soon to get the tree and decorations out and remember we haven’t had Thanksgiving yet.

I read a lot today and browsed the Sephora site, I have a gift card to use. I have a love-hate relationship with makeup and frou-frou stuff. I like wearing makeup because it is enhancing and makes me feel fully polished, groomed, and confident. But, I don’t like the fact that in society we are encouraged to highly value our physical appearance and we conform the way we dress and adorn ourselves in order to be accepted and approved of, especially women. I don’t like how we are judged and treated as less than if we don’t meet the standards society deems acceptable. We are treated as objects instead of spiritual beings having a human experience. I wish our society would have more depth and respect by treating everyone as inherently, equally worthy, and valuable no matter what their physical appearance or abilities.

As I’ve grown older I’ve become ever more comfortable with my imperfections. I value enjoying my life over trying to fit in and be approved of. What matters most is if I approve of me and if I am living according to my values and sharing my life with wonderful loving people. I have to admit it was fun looking at all the frou-frou glamour stuff at Sephora online. I felt kinda how I used to as a teen reading Seventeen magazine. Glittery, lip glossy fun.

No hula hooping today, no dancing, drawing, playing guitar, or video making. Maybe tomorrow? I am feeling so much better, but not quite back to my usual self yet. I have low stamina and bandwidth which limits me to sedentary, mindless activities. Time for me to get horizontal again. Maybe I’ll look at houses on Zillow, that’s relaxing and easy, yeah. I thought about playing video games, but just thinking about it is tiring, lol. With age comes longer recovery times after illness, meh. Hoping tomorrow I’ll be feeling more spring chickeny, heh.

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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