Moments of Tranquility

I am so thankful to be going on my daily walks again. It is so replenishing to get fresh air and sunshine. I haven’t gone on my usual long meandering walks. I’ve stayed on the nearby hill and walked back and forth. I usually also climb up to the top of the hill, walk along the top and back, but there’s been someone sitting or lying at the top of the hill near the trail, I see their silhouette. I don’t want to intrude and disturb their tranquility so I’ve skipped walking to the top.

I spent the afternoon distracted after checking the mail and receiving a notice regarding something I thought was already taken care of. So I have to cut through some more red tape. I’ll be so glad when this pandemic is over. I know we all will be so relieved when that happens.

I had to use my calming down skills. I fumed for a little while processing it and then took a bath. I then cooled off on the futon while reading the news, then I took some actions to begin cutting through the red tape, and now I’m feeling better. It’s just another thing. I just have to muck through it. Whatever will be will be and I’ll be able to navigate it and will have learned something new and will grow through having the experience.

In the meantime, I’m making the best of it and focusing on the things I do have control over. I’m investing in my health, increasing my knowledge, building my skills, creating and sharing through writing, taking photos, drawing, practicing guitar, doing work search activities, appreciating all of the things we have to be thankful for. Staying as positive as possible and not beating myself up if on some days I fail. These are some difficult times for us all.

I began listening to So You Want To Talk About Race by Ijeoma Oluo today. It’s excellent so far. It’s so great being able to check out audible and digital books from the library, especially these days.

I was in no mood to make a video today. I will be working on the red tape stuff tomorrow, but maybe I will get good news and be in a better mindset and will get back to video making. I believe it’s essential to building a business. I have so much to learn!

I’m going to finish my last PT exercise and the rest of my routine now and do calming activities. I’ll visualize that I’m that person lying in the sun on the top of the hill with not a care in the world except to soak in the beauty and just be. A moment of tranquility. We’ll see what tomorrow brings 🙂