Not Even a Mouse

The Logical Heart Knows Best

I had a video appointment with the allergist today. I don’t have asthma, yay! After that, Drue left for work. Then I planned my Christmas eve. I fought against the impulse to go to the grocery store, just to look at Christmas things and buy some goodies. Then I ogled the wine that Drue received from a hotel business contact as a thank you holiday gift. I resisted, I’m saving it for New Year’s Eve! I listened to a book, Another Brooklyn by Jacqueline Woodson while doing my PT instead.

Then I baked cookies http://www.dailyrebecca.com/2013/03/the-best-vegan-chocolate-chip-cookies/ and made a pie https://thebigmansworld.com/coconut-cream-pie/. I listened to music on TV on YouTube.

After that, I had a long, hot bath with a book. I used a special moisturizer a water lamellar treatment in my hair for the first time. Then I blew it dry so I could check the mail. I didn’t want to go out in the cold with wet hair. It helped my hair, it’s softer and less tangly. The gifts I ordered arrived in the mail. Now Drue and I have a game to play called We’re Not Really Strangers, and I got the self-reflection pack for myself. There were gifts for the kids too, but they won’t be getting them until New Year’s or after. I will bake goodies to send along too. The post office will catch up by then, I hope.

I felt like I should be busy preparing for Christmas because that’s how it’s been since having kids. Last year we were moving and the year before the kids were here visiting for Christmas. There have been years where I worked on Christmas, but we always celebrated on my days off near Christmas.

It felt blank, and empty, with no special plans or hustle and bustle as per usual. I had the urge to distract myself and flee from the void. I then sat with those feelings until they passed. Afterward, I felt peaceful and happy to bake while listening to music.

I washed all the dishes and tried a cookie, it’s delicious! Then it was blog time. Seven more days left! I’m in the home stretch!

I’m looking forward to Skyping with the kids tomorrow. Again, I’m so thankful for technology. It will be a quiet Christmas. I will make some apple crisp tomorrow with some apple pears. I tried eating them by themselves, but I didn’t like the texture, so gritty. I’d never had them before. I want to bake some ginger cookies but will wait until after we eat these cookies.

Maybe I will make some roti to go with the veggie tikka masala I made yesterday. I’ve been wanting to make pancakes, but never feel like cooking in the morning. Maybe we can have pancakes for lunch or supper instead on Sunday when Drue’s off work.

This is the most simple, peaceful, quietest Christmas ever! “Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse!” Hopefully, we’ll get to make up for it next year by traveling and sharing the holidays in person with loved ones.

Now it’s movie time! Happy Christmas Eve!

Michelle Miyagi
Hi! I was an RN, BSN in mental/behavioral health for 27 years. Now I'm helping empower caring people like me to prioritize themselves by maintaining healthier boundaries for more freedom, peace, and joy. I am also active in Long Covid advocacy.

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